Dealin' With Myself

I have lived with mental illness for about 20 years now. I never opened up about it and never really called it like that. The time is now. A few months ago I went to my doctor to ask if I could have some kind of professional help with my ADHD. I was struggling with getting a job and feeling lost (this blog was one of my attempts at helping myself at the time). A couple of weeks later I was sitting in an intake interview at Indigo , an organisation that gives support for people with psychological problems in the Netherlands. They call it Basic Mental Healthcare. I entered that office to get help for my ADHD and I left with the recommendation to look for specialised help because the psychologist thought I would also have Borderline Personality Disorder . Indigo received me and "offered" me a bundle of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy sessions. These sessions were very useful and they helped me to keep afloat but it soon became obvious that I/we were dealing with someth